Friday, November 13, 2009

Tomar sai sesh norom thoter chowa jano ajo khugi ami,

Sai chummoner gobirotto thake ajo barote parini ami,

Sei joriye dora bhisash,bola ami to achi,

Akhon sudhu boktetai porinito hoye roye gache,

Roilam sudhu ami,akha ami.....................

Tomar pothey adhar raate ghyarbe jochon raatro kalo,

Durey holeo dake niyo,kano se obhuj holeo tar atha bhallo,

Thakbo se duroto te lagam chara simanathe,

Bibosh hawa boibe abar, niye amai sash thikanate......

Ek beyrtho bisash tumi,

Moner kone akhono lukiye acho,

Charodigkher beshto jamon bhalobasha bhule gacho,

Gobirmoney choto ekti asha bachey ache,

Tai bhabi aye mritor birey tumi je manush,

Hoiitoba etai bhuley acho..................................

I hope someday i will see the dawn light,When you will open your shut doors to see piles of messages unread,sent from my heart randomly........................

For the wanted laugh i crawled so long,

Devils fought in me while they come around,

To the best of me she sold the soul,

How a aweful kick that has find its goal........

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Nai ami-ami nai

Nei sai dhudha dowa sakal aar nai,

Nai sai misti hawar sar aar nai,

Nai  sai fuller bora pata,

Nai sai bristi bora mater buk dhorey hata,

Nai sai ratro jaga nijum gaan,

Nai sai hoihullur bondhuder sathe,

Nai sai misti bora premer kotha,

Nai sai modhobrithi jibon katar kotha,

Kao nai na kothayo kayo nai,kache na durey,

Nai ko sathi bolay chobey sathey,

Nai kono prokar sai sothota aar nai,

Hoyto tomare jonno sai ami aar nai,,,,,,,,,,

Aral koray raykho,

Tomar achol gharah ridhoy,

Apon monay haysso tumi,

Ghodolir rang matano samay.......

Galloping with speed against time,

Me trying to search the ultimate light,

My capricious mind tighttening its grip,

Leaving me helpless on the times shore..........

Holding those wild gallows of truth,

I am burning in solitude,

Being unable to bear my nudity,

Running away from life towards death.

Succumb to anger i loose my vision,

Topping my vessel with hate and violence.

Restricting my need and hunger for conclution,

Still creeping inch by inch towards making of it....

Forever be mine which it was said,

Had pathetically fallen and fainally betrayed,

Endless talk of faith now had lost its colour,

Falling apart like a button of kollar.

My holy spirit want to be wild,

Now poison turned medicine killing me mild,

Mist and fog has taken plce as usual,

Assuring someday it will unveil the hidden cover.

On an endless walk i am,

Nurturing the feeling of loneliness,

Holding the broken thinks in my heart,

Walking down the wide lane of memory.

Betrayal and jealousy has streeped upon me,

Now enemy is my friend and friend is an enemy,

Vital she wins with her crooked deals,

Leaving me banged on my door with result withheld..

What if i do the don'ts,

What if i let the evil to succeed,

What if i supress my feeling,

What if i take the advantage of care and support,

What if i kill my inocence,

What if i betray my heart,

What if i stop pondering and start to act,

What if i ignore the visible truth,

What if i .........................................

Obesssion has hold around,nothing remained untouched,

Everything so submerged and flaten,

negociation with mind falling pathetically over my own existence.

Between do's and don'ts i got caught,

I do exist but still it seems without my real being.

When the matter of survival haunts me,

I try to break free and bring my existence to death,

But whom to convience one's own mind or soul.......

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Those eyes where so precious and beautiful,

That i admired everyday with love and care,

I judged the truthness with ease and comfort,

I knowingfully drowned self in it,.....I swear........

Night sweet night please make me sleep,

With the un forgotten memories take me dip,

On your qwn mysteries of love and care,

Take me,just take me we can together meet..................

Every faith have been played out by time,

Destined to betrayed the soul with witt,

I am privelaged now to desugn my death again asusal,

Though many undone things still left back to be done.......

The world seems sane to me as i feel insane,

Now every feeling is a happy one with exact meaning,

I feel pity at night when beggers and dogs roam aimless to find a stop,

In what a world i am living where solution is just to harm against harm.......

For those blue eyes i pained so long,

Devil stabbed my heart for the guilt so strong,

She betrayed my trust and sold my soul,

How aweful now is life i think without its goal......

Ruining self for my beloved soul,

I still strife-torn in pain for my only sin,

Emotionally upheral and tormented everytime,

I am just waiting my death to take me home.

Monday, November 9, 2009

Sanity has some other name as we known before,

Now emotions has got out and only broken shell where found,

Now human run for money with even no trust on themselves,

Only death remains in this dead city floating every where keeping lots in store......

Everyday inumerable times i plan my death,

For every cause that being so cruel by nature,i must have said,

Every thirsty dream wanred blood to quench its thirst,

For every mistake that i must have done i got the same,

Again being ruined by the same again and again.....

I cant see you face but can feel the smile,

I cant see your eyes but can feel the light.

I cant see you lips but can smell the essence,

I now i cant get you but i can still love you until i die....

Oh my suffering soul for the unsaid cause,

Tell my mistakes and negligible flows,

Forgive me please for my only sin ,

Please give me back i way i have been.

It  been a long time you have been walking alone,

No passerby whom you can say your own,

With no destination where you hope,you will stop,

Just walking lonely for the battle you have to fought.......

Being put to misery you,crawling for so long,

I admire your admiration and hpoe that so strong,

Fooling your pain you always put a smile on your face,

I pray from heart and soul that god bestow u with all his bless...........

What a complete mystery she is no one knows,

Giving a touch of care suddenly she goes,

waiting in belive the one who cried in heart,

Was now left forover in a lonely sea shore.

In the dark of carkness i saw a shivering light,

Fourtune fough within where i got almost blind,

Suddenly someone with hope took my hand and said i m there,

But then again put me to dwell in that shaggy dark sight........

Roaming aimless so long i ventured for truth,

Taking my scattered memories forwarding foot by foot,

Time again and again tried to put me in chains,

Fate laughed as destiny played the game that i couldnot understood.

I can see the pain that everyday you die,

crawling in the curse you still survive,

Talking pleasure out of unbearable pain it seems,

Everyday to try to play with your oweful life.

You are an unseen beauty that no one knows,

With golden het that can never be sold,

Your strength of truth will ashame the god,

Your spirit ti live can bloom flower ina draught.

Undone sin that you carrying for so long,

I ponder with pity how you still singing the song,

Hoping against hope you marched towards destiny,

you are fighter,though struggling to keep me on and on.