Friday, November 13, 2009
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Nei sai dhudha dowa sakal aar nai,
Nai sai misti hawar sar aar nai,
Nai sai fuller bora pata,
Nai sai bristi bora mater buk dhorey hata,
Nai sai ratro jaga nijum gaan,
Nai sai hoihullur bondhuder sathe,
Nai sai misti bora premer kotha,
Nai sai modhobrithi jibon katar kotha,
Kao nai na kothayo kayo nai,kache na durey,
Nai ko sathi bolay chobey sathey,
Nai kono prokar sai sothota aar nai,
Hoyto tomare jonno sai ami aar nai,,,,,,,,,,
Holding those wild gallows of truth,
I am burning in solitude,
Being unable to bear my nudity,
Running away from life towards death.
Succumb to anger i loose my vision,
Topping my vessel with hate and violence.
Restricting my need and hunger for conclution,
Still creeping inch by inch towards making of it....
Forever be mine which it was said,
Had pathetically fallen and fainally betrayed,
Endless talk of faith now had lost its colour,
Falling apart like a button of kollar.
My holy spirit want to be wild,
Now poison turned medicine killing me mild,
Mist and fog has taken plce as usual,
Assuring someday it will unveil the hidden cover.
On an endless walk i am,
Nurturing the feeling of loneliness,
Holding the broken thinks in my heart,
Walking down the wide lane of memory.
Betrayal and jealousy has streeped upon me,
Now enemy is my friend and friend is an enemy,
Vital she wins with her crooked deals,
Leaving me banged on my door with result withheld..
What if i do the don'ts,
What if i let the evil to succeed,
What if i supress my feeling,
What if i take the advantage of care and support,
What if i kill my inocence,
What if i betray my heart,
What if i stop pondering and start to act,
What if i ignore the visible truth,
What if i .........................................
Obesssion has hold around,nothing remained untouched,
Everything so submerged and flaten,
negociation with mind falling pathetically over my own existence.
Between do's and don'ts i got caught,
I do exist but still it seems without my real being.
When the matter of survival haunts me,
I try to break free and bring my existence to death,
But whom to convience one's own mind or soul.......